Gevoelens

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What strikes me is that many people have trouble naming, feeling and expressing their feelings. I had that myself 1992, the year of my crisis. Until then I used to always say I was fine, fine i said. My fellow patients said:"Well, Henny, you're not here for your sweaty feet, so tell me what's going on how you feel now" I had a lot of trouble with that, because I used to learn at home that you don't hang out the dirty laundry and now I was asked to show it off. Hesitantly I started and through the understanding and encouragement of my fellow patients I got better and better. I mostly felt fear and disappointment and failure. Gradually I learned to acknowledge and feel and express my feelings. Afzien van expressie leidt tot depressie, and I witnessed it up close.

I asked a friend what he felt now. He replied: "Good" I said:"Good is not a feeling but a qualification", what do you feel?’. Then he said evasively:"I feel happy". Ik zei:"That's not a feeling either" He then quickly switched to another subject and I just left it that way, he wasn't ready for his feelings yet.

During an NLP course I learned that it is good to switch between thinking, feeling and doing. If someone is in his mind ask what he feels and does and if someone is a doer ask what he thinks and feels…etc..

Feelings are not taken so seriously in the western world, Ever since Descartes' "I think, therefore I am" we have all been thinking together, at school we learn that, it is spoon-fed and we keep doing it, but happiness is a feeling, so you should pay more attention to your feelings, both the positive and the negative, see them as messengers from which we can learn a lot to come to real life and consciousness.

Een ervaring in Amsterdam

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Amsterdam city center

Years ago I was having lunch in a lunchroom in the center of Amsterdam, the lunchroom was led by a married couple, I asked the woman where the Oudemanhuispoort was because they sell second-hand books there, she said with disgust in her voice:'You're just like my husband with all those books, they are all dust nests, nothing but misery'. Ik zei:"Be glad that your husband spends his money on books and not on drink and whores."’

When I left the shop the man came to me took me by the arm nodded his head and said grateful:Thank you for your support sir!’

Bodhisattva

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De bodhisattva Avalokitesvara, Lord of love and compassion

A bodhisattva is a real person with a certain realization, delaying its illumination and Buddhahood to support and help out others on their way to liberation and awakening. The vows of the bodhisattva for guidance about my life, I try to live as much as possible, The following are the vows:

-1-how many people are, I take me to help them and support

-2-how many errors there may be in me, I take me to extinguish

-3-how far the truth may also be removed from me, I intend to realize and live

-4-how far Buddhahood also may be removed, I take for me to realize that

bodhisattva klankschaal

I have a singing bowl I mentioned bodhisattva, it is one of the most beautiful, which can be seen here and heard:bodhisattvaschaal

He is the main tone B and represents the crown chakra or the connection with the Higher Self, the cosmos, met God. I feel related to the life of the Bodhisattva, one of the famous bodhisattva is Avalokitesvara, the lord of love and compassion, He is an example for me. The large-scale(see and hear at large scale, message of 15-12-2011) I named Avalokitesvara.

M’n vriend Charles, in the 2006 was transferred to the spiritual world is a bodhisattva, I saw that one of the few(it takes one to know one!).

The illustrated Imari oil lamp is named after him, I fire light as I remain open to the inspiration of Charles, He wished me daily inspiration and I feel it now, the connection is still there. He said with his voice bronze:"Young friend, I wish you much inspiration '.

Kamparipa klankschaal

The bodhisattva Kamparipa decided to retire from the world. I have a singing bowl(see image and hear the audio clip: Kamparipa scale) I have mentioned Kamparipa, it is what I call the golden bowl, he shines. I retired as Kamparipa few years the world around me with contemplation, meditation and introspection to keep busy. A friend told me after years of only:"Henny now is the time to reach out to the people ', I felt that there was much in. I was a day later when her sister Elly Rose came to visit, Roos awarded me a glance and said nothing to me and spoke to Elly with 'r misery story, I decided to read a book and read:"The time for preparation is past, it is time to reach out ". I thanked God for this synchronicity and clear message and started to reach out and do it now again and am looking forward to your story.

Jehovah's

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I got Jehovahs at the door who wanted to convert and persuade me to their faith, However, I was ahead of them and said:"You are like a flower". They started to shine and saw it as a nice compliment and tribute. I then said,:But I'm an eclectic, you know what that is?’. They didn't know. I then said,:'An eclectic is one who picks his flowers from everywhere in Hinduism', Jainism, Buddhism, christendom, jodendom, taoïsme, shintoïsme, etc,etc. until he has a beautiful bouquet of flowers and now you want me to hand in my beautiful bouquet against that one flower of yours?!’

Now they were in trouble and embarrassment, they had no Bible text for that and they dripped off, they also didn't know a good reason why limit yourself to just one flower when you can have all the flowers in the world, I never saw them again after that. I could laugh about it afterwards and would like to share it with you here…

Ch'od ritueel

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You see me here with the Ch'od drum and bell

de Ch'od(pronounced Sjut) Nepali drum and the bell that I bought from a development worker who works in Nepal and this bell he bought for me.

The ritual is performed with the ch'od drum and bell to drive out the demons and gods and to come to a state of no-mind ', where Osho so beautiful has spoken. It makes a horrible noise which you are indeed on the course

The ritual should lead to a complete disidentification, neti neti as the Hindus say, not this and not that, nothing is to be everything. If something is not nothing something is saying, I would say nothing is everything…

No not seek aversion, but compassionate His.

My friend Jan Peter once said to me :"I am nothing", I could not resist when to say:"I am everything" He laughed then and said,:"That is exactly the same ', we lachtten

Have fun listening and shudder fun with this sound: ch'od drum + bel